And then we got our annual notice for Grant's ARD - Texas acronym for special ed meeting. Which I expected. I knew it was coming but still even now, I HATE it. In case you have ever wondered what it feels like to sit in your child's IEP meeting... it feels like...like being naked in a room full of people as they list everything that is wrong with you. And even though you know everything already and were probably even a harsher critic than they are, it is nauseating. I have to say, my child has the MOST AMAZING team of teachers, administrators, therapists in the world. They are supportive, loving, professional, AMAZING. I know they work so hard, I know they love my child. I know we are blessed. I know, I know, I know, but still it freaking hurts. I know we need to start thinking about "life planning" (even though he is only in first grade), I hate the idea of it. I love my child. I love him exactly how God made him. But still... somewhere in my irrational little heart, I am broken thinking about what his future will entail, what he will not be able to do, or experience. I still hope that he will "get better". He has done so many things that the doctors have said he couldn't do, I just keep hoping. I have to, right? I am his mom, I have to keep believing in him and all he will be able to do. But once a year, I have to discuss the reality of it in a big room full of wonderful people, and it is awful. It takes everything I have to keep it together. In fact, I cry at other people's ARD meetings. And I get why parents don't show up. It's too much sometimes. I think being on the other side of the table gives me a completely different perspective for the families of the students we serve.
Here is my little booger delivering popcorn to the teachers and students at his school. His amazing teachers do this with the kids each Friday to teach them real world skills. He loves it! Look at his smile! We are blessed. I just need to get through the meeting.
This week in class we started my Snow Unit -
http://www.teacherspayteachers.com/Product/Snow-a-Four-Book-Literature-Unit-Fiction-and-Non-Fiction. We have had a great time learning about Snowflake Bentley. My class is incredible and they have had a great time comparing him to people like Amelia Earhart and George Washington Carver - because they all had perseverance. I love them. We loved making snowflakes and drawing the other half of snowflakes in the Snowflake Symmetry pages. We are will be working on Cynthia Rylant's Snow book next week and writing poetry. I can't wait to see what they come up with.